Less Than Perfect

2006-12-10T21:37:00.000-08:00

change add.

http://unfabliinda.multiply.com

thanks.

relink

bye.

2006-11-27T16:16:00.000-08:00

So,
My mp3 cudnt work this morning.
it was the most boring journey to school ever.
Music sets my mood in the morning.
And without it, I got no mood at all.
I was dragging my feet to school
thinking about my life (so effing emo but nvm)
about where i'm heading after this
what am i going to become
is he the one
can i be a better person

whatever la.

maybe his not in a gd mood every morning

i shud know.

well

my horoscope for today

A change in your lifestyle, friendships or even your beliefs concerning children will take place.
Someone will recognise your talent if you present what you can do.
And older friend or relative will help you make your decision

his horoscope for today

Be careful what you say and do today.
Someone will be waiting and watching you to make a mistake.
Changes may not be welcome but, if you take the path of least resistance, it will turn out better for you in the end.

Purpose serves as a principle around which to organize our lives.

2006-11-20T17:26:00.000-08:00

my head is spinning.

In AOA class.

Nuthing more to say.

I'll update on Ariff's bdae bash soon.

and the BL graduation nite. Starry Starry Nite.

Change is difficult but often essential to survival.

Bye

2006-11-19T16:54:00.000-08:00

Getting my priorities confused again.
I know my top priority is my education over anything else.
You see, bf is running a very high fever today.
I started to freak out really.
So i ended up not going to sch, again.
I'm really scared if his thalasemia (whatever u spell it) comes back or his hep b.
I took my time to take care for him, pay extra attention when he was always falling sick last time.
but now, i think if he is constantly falls sick i dont think i cud give the time like last time.
i haf to concentrate on my studies.
haf to.
but what if he falls sick again?

Life is full of contradiction.

Bye.

2006-11-13T17:20:00.000-08:00

*sigh* I lurvee rainy days...
my sch shoes drenched to the maximum.
tats why i was late.
and i had to wear dear's ugly blue adidas to sch.
its not my size so my feet is starting to develop blisters.

Looking forward to Ariff's surprise bdae bash!

I shud haf done that for dear *sigh*

Life is beautiful

Bye.

What I Go To School For

2006-11-12T17:06:00.000-08:00

Well, I cant wait to graduate from ITE yet..
One day im gonna miss the happenings in class..
The gossips, the long faces, the joy, the laughters, the stress of deadlines, the conflicts...
Of cos. One day i'll miss what I do at school..
cos when I enter working world, my mischiefs in sch are so unacceptable there..
Ya I know..no latecoming, no dozing off, no do-as-i-like..
One thing i wud miss most is my good friends.
Yesh we did alot of things may not be pleasing to people's eyes..
Such as late-coming, dozing off..
Us 5 peeps are naturally like that and we werent influenced by one another, if thats some people think...
We haf our own individual identity and our own beliefs, becos I know some people think that we're like the "monkey-see-monkey-do" kinda friendship..
(well of cos sometimes it just so happened that we like the same things)

what I like most about the friendship i haf with hana, rehan, ckin & fariha..
its the freedom to speak.
I dont feel tied down to them yet I know i haf this special bonding with them..
We say what we think..be it what we like or what we dont like about each other and other stuffs..
Of cos. Its always in the nicest way we cud say.
We wont get mad if either one of us objects to an idea..(of cos, we'd go by majority and give and take mostly..)
And the important thing is, we dont hold grudges..
THAT is the secret why we're so close from the beginning...

I dont know why there are people who thinks that my friends wud influence other people to be like us when they hang with us...
We're not that sort..

I'm glad that i'm like this (tho mayb sometimes i just hate the way i am -_-)
becos when I'm old, I cant do all these things anymore...

To me, just as long as I get good grades and my gpa doesnt flunk below 3...
I'll just stick to the way I am in school...

Bye.

Deja Vu

2006-11-01T06:21:00.000-08:00

Gosh no updates for 1 mnth plus.
Who cares.
Had attachment during the hols.
Enjoyed it.
Problems here and there. of course.
Fun time passed so quickly.

Well you and you and the rest of you
Get the Hell out of my sight.
Pests.
dont give THAT look as tho i owe u you people something.
if there IS something you dont like about me, say it to my face.
i AM VERY sure, i have something to say about you too.

Crap!

bye.

2006-09-23T11:58:00.000-07:00

skrng da pukol 3 pagi aku maseh blom tido...

aku ni sebenar nye mcm lepas kan geram..
sblom tutop skola tk bole surf internet.....pasal bnyk sngt bende nk buat untk project..
so aku skrng ni surf internet mcm aku sec 2 dulu...smpai tk tido mlm..haha zaman silam...
tapi skrng aku bole bertahan sampai kul 3.30 pagi je....
anyway pon da start attachment hari monday..so bile da start attachment kan da tk ley tido lmbt..nanti tido lmbt tk ley bngn, lmbt gi keje mampos aku..
kdng2 aku pk aku ni terlalu laid-back, suke sngt procrastinate..
aku ingat aku pena tulis new-year's resolution, jgn sgnt laid-back
tapi nk beruba tu punye la susah...haiz..
skrng pulak aku ni nak step ladies je..
haha kononla...
sebenar nye, aku ni orngnye nmpk je cam garang, ape apela...
tetapi, kalau betol2 krng kenal aku kan, aku ni sebenar nye orng yg pemalu..haha (peje linda; da gile) tk kesah ape orng ckp pasal aku cam gitu la aku nye perangai...aku bole tahan ngn perangai orng yg merepek meraban tapi kalau orng tanye pendapat aku, selalunye aku lebih suke ckp yg benar...aku pon quite reserve la orng nye...
TAPI kalau aku ngn aku nye favorite cousin, belang aku semua klua, die partner incrime aku...kalau kite da same2, hell breaks loose...mak mak kitrng tk bole tahan ngn kekecohan kitrng....hehe
sampai sini saje ok..

what rubbish~!
anyone who survived till here..
((::
i'm just bored.

bye

Push The Button

2006-09-21T08:23:00.000-07:00

Mom brought out an issue.
Mom is the flexible and sensible type.
I dont listen to alot of people but..
if there is one person i'd listen to, it'd be my mom.
I am known for my hard-headedness in my family and friends.
Well thats me right. I stand for what I believe in.

Anyways
it was abt BF.
and our relationship
and where its heading.
Not that mom wants me to get married next year
or anything. (i'll freak out if she wants me to)

Well she knows what sort of person BF's mom is.
and mom's worried about me.
BF's mom is nice but people has flaws.
Moms worried that maybe BF's mom sees me like not-a-wife material.
His family is religious but mine's more about the real world.
It doesnt mean that my family doesnt know a thing abt my religion but we do have a sound knowledge about it.
I know i'm not pretty or stylish.
Every mom wants the best for their son, well, mom feels that I need to improve myself.
I'm not saying that BF's mom has treated me with no respect or badly.
But its this is something that I worry about every single day.

I'm going crazy to doll up myself
I'm going crazy to lose weight
Its even crazier to impress people arnd me
I dont even sound like myself nowadays
This is madness!

Theres another thing that mom mentioned which i cant share it here.
Well, i wud really hate it IF she's right anyways.
Yesh, hate it IF SHE'S RIGHT!

Bye.

World Peace!

See How I Evolved In 2 years

2006-09-20T10:46:00.000-07:00

BF pointed out that Ive changed.
In a gd way tho.
I got his point
and I realized he was right.
LOL.

Here's some evidence.

The top row is mostly when I was in secondary school.
Somewhere below is when I was hafing my break after Nitec
Mostly below is taken thruout this year.

Funny. I feel the same. But i SAW the difference.

Bye.

Zoo 160906

2006-09-19T07:38:00.000-07:00

Went to Zoo last weekends with pals and bf.
Even tho it was raining quite heavily, we continued walking without caring much.
Had fun, yeah!

Destination Zoo 160906

Collage

Picture of The Day

Afterall, according to Rehan, they were lovers. Haha.

T'was very dramatic. hehe ((: no hard feelings Kinos.

We know how much Afy loves u.

Plus, readers, Rehan and Afy were never lovers.

P/S: I look so "pregnant" in that dress.. oh well..I had fun!

Bye.

2006-09-14T02:02:00.000-07:00

Monday's bf bdae.
I planned something oredy.
Its nothing expensive.
Cant afford that.
Well.
I'll make everything myself.
I just need my sis to teach me
how to use the oven.
HeHe~
He'll turn 21 soon.
He wants something special.
I hope it'll be a
very memorable bdae.

This may sound weird but its for him.
Haha.

Lyrics

High School Musical - What I've Been Looking For

It's hard to believe

That I couldn't see

You were always there beside me

Thought I was alone

With no one to hold

But you were always right beside me

This feelings like no other

I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do

the way you do

I've never had somone as good for me as you

no one like you

so lonely before i finally found

what i've been looking for

So good to be seen

So good to be heard

Don't have to say a word

For so long I was lost

So good to be found

I'm loving having you around

This feeling's like no other

I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do

The way you do

I've never had someone as good for me as you

No one like you

So lonely before, I finally found what I've been looking for

Hehe

Bye.

2006-09-14T01:57:00.000-07:00

Look at this video.
So CACAT!

It looks at though
it was me and kerazee friends
trying to make a silly replica
of PCD-Buttons.
Imagine THAT~!

Yes we love them.

Bye.

2006-09-12T12:53:00.000-07:00

I dont know if I'm nervous about the paper
or
worried abt something else..

Just in case u dont know.
Its already 4 in the morning and i'm still awake!

lets hope that i can wake up on time to sit for my exam..

Bye.

2006-09-12T07:06:00.000-07:00

Never Mind.
What's the point?
Of blogging a long entry about my misery.

Mom, be in my shoes and U'll know
what's holding me back to do what
u wanted me to do.

Yes, I sweat like hell.

Ask my classmates if u dont believe me.

Bye.

P/S: who doesnt want to be pretty? U tell me. She tried everything. EVERYTHING.

2006-09-07T04:34:00.000-07:00

I know everyone is not perfect.
The thing is I can never get things right.
I kept losing things.
And confusing my priorities.
And slowly, I feel as though
i wud lose him one fine day.
Why am I so complicated?
Why evrything getworst day by day?
Why must these things happen to me?!
WHY?!

I just hate my life.

2006-08-26T08:41:00.000-07:00

What Happened On Wed

DHL "Field Trip"
In summary
Lamest.
Waste Of Time.

What Happened On Fri

The morning was ok.
The afternoon sucked.
I lost my wallet.
I only realized it when I wanted to
take the bus back from Sikinos' place to school.
Becos of my carelessness, my grp members
missed the school bus to bring us to
Kampong Glam.
So the drama.

I would like to blog-ly thank my 2 close friends
Rehan and Sikinos
for the fares that day.
and Charmaine, for being so cool about the whole drama.

I'm still waiting for a kind soul to return my wallet.
I dont care abt the money,
I just want my ezlink, IC, and my atm card back.
Boohoo...~!

Bye!

2006-08-22T09:53:00.000-07:00

T&D finally over~
All those hardwork. I hope it pays.
Well.
Wat can I say, the work always get screwed up at the very last moment
after days of hardwork, it will somehow fall apart at the very last moment.
Take the boardgame for example.
Days of hardwork.
Sourcing.
And when its submission day.
It cudnt work out.
The glitter glue started to fall.
The aluminium looked ugly.
And
Importantly,
The wheel cudnt spin.
Yes.
So we showed the Great Loh-ness
our 'mighty' boardgame
and requested for a day to fix the damage.
Looking at the condition of the boardgame,
she agreed that it needed to be fixed. fast.
she gave us only 1 day to do it.
I suggested that we change the game.
Everyone agreed.
The good thing is
my members nvr run out of good ideas.
So we fixed the problem
and everyone's happy.
Um, well
I hope that my classmates
wont think that she's being unfair
for giving us a day later to submit
our game.
The condition of our game was horrible
and I felt like I was carrying a white thrashbag
to and fro school.
Imagine the crowded train in the morning. gawd~!
Well I guess,
the great Loh-ness wud reflect it on our grades.

So i'm left with TPS project on Kampong Glam
My group's theme is about SCENT.
But we still cudnt figure a name for the theme.
Group members: The usual 5 and Charmaine Ashley Ng
Welcome aboard, Charmaine :)

Bye!

2006-08-14T02:50:00.000-07:00

National Day 2006

A few pics from Hana's cam.

(I'm still waiting for Arif's)

2006-08-14T02:43:00.000-07:00

OA presentation is over!
Left with TPS project.
I still haf abt 1 month before my final term exam.
And about 8 month before I graduate. Yay!

On 9 August 2006, da gurls and I (and our bfs)
went to Kallang to watch the fireworks.
It was ok.
On 7 August, we went to Esplanade.
T'was way better. haha.

My Dirty Little Secret

2006-08-07T03:58:00.000-07:00

She found out.
I'm as good as dead.
My mind is in chaos.
I have to leave him.
This strong feelings
tell me that he cant
face them.
Ive to think this thru.
I dont wanna be hasty.

We need to talk.

Bye.

Dirrty Laundry

2006-08-07T01:27:00.000-07:00

Finally our OA project has been submitted.
My group met up on Sunday @ Wak Yam's hse @ arnd 1pm
Hana and I ended up with a sleepless night
trying to finish editting the video and ppt.
Our boyfriends were there as well.
Thanks ya Arif?
Wont call u 'Dugong' anymore.
haha.

Dear, I Love You!

Bye.

2006-08-02T19:25:00.000-07:00

He called this morning @ 0615hrs
Aw. Its so nice to hear his voice 1st thing in the morning.
Cant wait for him to come home.

2006-08-02T08:23:00.000-07:00

1.Do the following without complain
2. Choose 5 bloggers to do this upon completion
3. Leave a tag on the 5 tagboards to announce he/she has been tagged.
4. Start your entry with "I've been tagged!" then do the following.

I'VE BEEN TAGGED! by PRINCESS

Favourites.
colour: Purple, Orange, Black and Earth-Tone
food: Def mom's cooking
song: listen to any genre but currently hooked to PCD & A7X
movie: Witchcrafts, Teen Flicks type of movie - im nt into horror movies
sport: i dont do sports. need u ask abt my size? haha
season: i want to xperience winter.
ice cream: chewy chocolate.

Currents.
mood: bored.missing bf.
taste: i want cheese.
clothes: sch p.e and some home shorts
desktop: my name.
toe nail colour: zero.
surroundings: clothes. (??)
annoyance: my sis voice!
thoughts: i want him home.

Firsts.
best friend: bf.mom.sis
crush: *rolls eyes* i refuse to answer.
movie: Cant remember.
lie: hm, wat was it?
music: Prolly, nursery rhymes? tat counts?

Lasts.
cigarette: no, ew!
drink: ice water.
car ride: i take train.
crush: *rolls eyes* i refuse to answer.
movie: The Omen - Old Version
phone call: Bf.Misses.
cd played: A7X - Chapter 4. MP3 counts?

Have You Ever:
dated one of your best friends: Well. Nope.
broken the law: a few times but never get caught. I dont do it anymore. ((:
been arrested: Nope.
skinny-dipped: Nope
been on tv: Nope.
kissed someone you dont know: No. Ew!

5 things you are wearing: t-shirt,short,bra,undies,blackbangles.
4 things you done today: eat,school,brush teeth,sleep,blog.
3 things you can hear right now: fan,silence.
1 thing you do when your bored: unconciously dig my nose. ew! haha who doesnt?

5 ppl whom I want to do this thing: sikin,sally,yanee,rina,shuoke (pls dont kill me.)

Split Personality

2006-07-27T01:00:00.000-07:00

Ultra Sexy Baby Shower

2006-07-26T23:10:00.000-07:00

Fun's over.
Here comes the stress.
I have a major project weightage about 3/4 for the finals due on 7 August.
Left about 1 week to prepare our presentation
and creative item.
Its a good thing that the board game is due on the 21 Aug.
Yes, to add it all up, I have a
very important CA for Tourism Module on Tuesday, 1 August.
This is madness.
I'm really trying hard to get an 'A' for both subjects
or at least an 'A' for one of the subs and a 'B' for another one.
Ya I know some people might laugh it of
well, im the late-coming-dozing-off type of student
but that really doesnt mean I cant study..Phff~

I dont know if I might get too carried away with the stress
with the freaking due dates.
and my Class Advisor pressed
my group so hard for our drafts.
I was a wee bit 'paranoid' this morning
cos my group was supposed to hand in our 2nd draft.
And my group leader who has the ready print draft
happened to miss the morning assembly.
So we called her house, no one answered; and she didnt reply
to the msgs sent.
We totally assumed that she wouldnt come.
and Ya, I was the most 'kanciong' among
my group.
Please.
I really dont want to be embarrassed infront of the class.
my class advisor just has a lot of comment.
So the rest of my group decided to print another backup copy
at Mdm Rajes's lab.
And we did.
We missed a period.
So when we came into class, there she was.
My dearest group leader..haha
And of course, we got a basket full of nags
from our class advisor.
We found out that my group leader actually
was low on her prepaid card.
i guess maybe i got too carried away with the stress
of the due dates, test and my actual goal to achieve both 'A's [haha]

I really want to help my group leader.
well since she didnt take the CA fr OA module, I guess she really
need to score for this major project. That is why i'm going crazy trying to
make things right. and the rest too.
I really hope she dont mind.
Helping her will benefit the rest and myself.
Its a package.

Oh yes,
I had a wardrobe malfunction on the way to school.
The bottom of my skirt zip kinda busted.
So I had to figure a way to cover it.
Almost didnt want to go to school today
But I cant risk being on the debarment list again.
Attendance for OA - 96.++%
BooHoo~

Imagine all that.

Bye.

Destination Sentosa

2006-07-25T09:41:00.000-07:00

The Destination

The Boys

Left to Right: Arif, Hanaffie, Ridwan, Fahmi

Left to Right: Arif, Hanaffie, RidwanFront: Fahmi
The Girls

Left to Right: Hana, Sikin, Rehan, Liinda, Fariha, Rina
Left to Right: Hana, Sikin, Rehan, Liinda

Left to Right: Rehan, Hana, LiindaThe Couples

Tallest to Shortest:Ridwan & LiindaArif & HanaSikin & AfyRehan & Fahmi

2006-07-20T11:50:00.000-07:00

Looking forward to weekend with da gurls..
Wowzies.
I'll be spending my weekend @ Sentosa..
Hope it'll be fun.
Phff! I know so.

Bye.

P/S: Pics will be posted with the blog-er has the time.

2006-07-19T11:57:00.000-07:00

2006-07-19T11:39:00.000-07:00

Fcuk!
my MP3 is broken!

Just when school is about to reopen.

The funny thing is

it broke by itself.

How funny. *rolls eyes*

Sometimes

I just want to wrap my chunky fingers

around ur neck

and wonder why you're choking.

Thanks ok.

But be very sure

that I'll never let him borrow any

of my stuff again because

everytime when the stuff that

he borrowed was found broken

after he used it, he'd say

"oh, when I left it it was still ok..."

For my MP3's case which split into half,

and I carely attached it back together so

its kinda usable for awhile

was freshly out of the bag that

he used which he borrowed from

me.

Have mercy on my bag ok Bro.

Hm, well

there is NOTHING for

him to borrow from me

anymore because

I practically lost my HP

and now my MP3 is broken as well.

So there is NOTHING that he

possibly want to borrow from me.

What could he possibly want?

Brothers,

Hmm..

They are not only highly annoying but majorly irresponsible also!

URGH!

Bye.

P/S: The white Creative MuVo V200 256MB was bought together with BF's. His was as good as new. Envious. It was his 20th Bdae gift. And mine broke first.

How Sad!

Bleh~

2006-07-16T11:20:00.000-07:00

this is all bull shit.

no big deal.

bye.

10 Things You Dont Know About Women

2006-07-15T02:13:00.000-07:00

Women are innately self-conscious. This is not a choice; it's a genderwide condition.
Women produce half the world's food but own only 1 percent of its farmland
Women like porn, too. We just hate it when you hide the porn.
Women remember everything .Don't believe me?Ask your girlfriend where you met. She won't tell you it was at a party. She'll say it was a Thursday, she had just come from dinner, where she ate a veggie burger, and she was wearing her friend Cathy's pink top, which was big on her because Cathy is a big girl. You were wearing a blue button-down, drinking a Jack and Coke with two straws, and talking to Bill, that mutual friend. She waved and you gave her the "what's up" nod. This still infuriates her.
An eyelash curler, while mean and ferocious looking, is not a weapon.
No matter how much your woman loves you, there are going to be three to seven days each month when she wants you dead.
Women think it's weird when you watch sports and concentrate to help your team
"Hey, Melissa, who's the boss?" Not a good pickup line. "Hey, Phoebe, where'd you park your broomstick?" Not a good pickup line. "Hey, Alyssa, you look 250 pounds lighter than Brian Dennehy in that dress." Surprisingly good pickup line.
Women hear better than men.
You may be surprised to know that women were responsible for inventing all of the following: the circular saw, the signal flare, the space suit, the bulletproof vest, and the windshield wiper. You're welcome.

Interesting huh?

I picked this up from MSN news..

Bye.

Great, I'm 20

2006-07-11T06:08:00.000-07:00

Firstly.
I lost my handphone on the eve of my birthdae.
What more cud happen right?
And then..
I lost my voice.
Call me @ home if you dont believe me.
Last night was worst.
No one could understand wat I said.
And its kinda tiring to repeat.

Bye.

Geek in the Pink?

2006-07-04T01:52:00.000-07:00

Argh! Need a new skin
Pink is so not my color!

2006-07-03T23:22:00.000-07:00

Paris sing?!
Yes I was suprised..
Take a look..or hear.. (??)

LYRIC - Stars are blind by Paris Hilton

I don't mind spending some time
Just hanging here with you
'Cause I don't find too many guys
That treat me like you do.
Those other guys all wanna take me for a ride
But when I walk their talk is suicide
Some people never get beyond their stupid pride
But you can see the real me inside
And I'm satisfied, oh no, ohh

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make it nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Maybe I'm perfect for you

Ohh, ohh, ohh

I could be your confidante
Just one of your girlfriends
But I know that's not what you want
If tomorrow the world ends
Why shouldn't we be with the one we really love?
Now tell me who have you been dreaming of?
I and I alone, oh, no

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make it nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Baby I'm perfect for you

Excuse me for feeling
This moment is critical
Might be we feel it
It could get physical, oh no, no, no

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make it nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Oh
Let's see what love can do (Oh)
Maybe I'm perfect for you

Maybe I'm perfect for you (Oh)
You (Oh)
Maybe I'm perfect for you

Even though the gods are crazy (Oh)
Even though the stars are blind (Oh)
Even though the gods are crazy (Oh)
Even though the stars are blind (Oh)

2006-07-03T08:26:00.000-07:00

Phff
Brazil lose to France!
I cant believe it man!
Niweis, aint watching world cup anymore..
no more brazil, no more torres..
Bored bored..
Hols are here and alone at home..
i was like a PIG, lazing arnd at home..
Thurs meeting the rest...
Kewl.~!

Bye.

Cant get enuff of this!

2006-06-29T01:44:00.000-07:00

LYRIC - Bat Country by Avenged Sevenfold

Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
I tried to drive all through the night,
the heat stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sights.
No oasis here to see,
the sand is singing deathless words to me.
[Chorus:]Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.
As I adjust to my new sights the rarely tired lights will take me to new heights.
My hand is on the trigger I'm ready to ignite.
Tomorrow might not make it but everything's all right.
Mental fiction, follow me; show me what it's like to be set free.
[Chorus]So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem. Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
These eyes won't see the same, after I flip today.
Sometimes I don't know why we'd rather live than die, we look up towards the sky for answers to our lives.
We may get some solutions but most just pass us by, don't want your absolution cause I can't make it right.
I'll make a beast out of myself, gets rid of all the pain of being a man.
[Chorus]So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.
I've known it from the start all these good ideas will tear your brain apart.
Scared but you can follow me I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die.

M.Shadows is HOTT! His dimples...his mesmorizing voice..haiz...
and the song rawks!
Cant get enuff of this...Waaa!
Sorry love. Haha.
Ya and bf changed his name to M.Ridwan,
just cos of my obsession with M.Shadows, for now..hhaha
Bye.

Continue..

2006-06-29T00:39:00.000-07:00

Dearest Sis Engagement Day, 25 June 2006, Sunday

Dearest Sis was so nervous the whole day..

Haha, pity her..

She could hardly breathe in that white suit.

Yesh, she gained some weight past 2 years.

And struggled to shed some before the "big" day.

Haha..

she looked different, right?

Gorgeous!

Hm, envious!

Hehe, under blk..fetching my mom's friend..

And, the most irritating thing that happened was

Almost all my relatives asked me whens my turn..

Bleh..~

Bye!

2006-06-27T08:35:00.000-07:00

Dearest Sis Engagement Day, 25 June 2006, Sunday

Arynne's Experimental Hairdo, Friday afternoon

Well, she got dead str8 hair so I spent about an hour to curl it up.

She was happy with the results.

Final Prep Day, Saturday Morning

On the way to Northpoint to buy more stuff!

Left to right - Yanny(bride to be), Liinda, Arynne

Cousins Love@!

Final Prep Nite, Saturday Nite

CLOCKWISE

1) Cousins Love@! - Lieza, Yanny(bride to be), Syam(budak botak) & Arynne

2) My Twin Sis - Arynne (Almost, she my closest cousin)

3) Budak Botak - Syam

4) My Mom's sister and husband came to help with the prep work. Arynne's mom was there as well but didnt get to snap her pic.

2006-06-26T19:50:00.000-07:00

Hafnt got enuff sleep these days.
Yannots engagement was on sunday and we were superbly busy since friday.
Hafnt got enuff sleep.
And of cos worldcup craziness.
Mom is much more enthu abt worldcup than dad.
since shes not working, she practically watched every single match.
gees, mommy!
well, i joined her as well but not every single one of them.
i wud only watch the ones with cute thangs..haha
Im so in love with Fernando Torres from Spain!!
and Kaka, and Lampard, and haha more...
Sorry love.

bye.

2006-06-20T07:42:00.000-07:00

Life just suck nowadays....

2006-06-04T06:19:00.000-07:00

Ive been super busy juggling with school, work, BF and unneccesary migraining problems.
I just fall sick on Friday..wahaha..
So I guess Miss ISA Pageant is postponed..
I promise you the results before we graduate ok?
hahaha
So right now its more of the school then work then BF then myself..
Dont care what's going to happen to the world..haha..
I cant be a superhero, ya know?

Bye.

2006-05-28T19:42:00.000-07:00

Yes, I'd rather seat on the fence OGY...

2006-05-28T19:30:00.000-07:00

Whatever

I dont take sides.

My instinct tells me that im being punished for something i hafnt done.

and yes, i trust my instincts very much.

and yes, its unfair.

I may not understand what my dear friend is going thru

and im very sure she doesnt want to share

but hey, make me understand and i'll understand u.

Ya i may not know things but its worst when u're being ditched just like that and not knowing what its for.

Im not going to be mad if my dear friend wants to mix with someone else.

[hey, she's not mine..-_-]

but i gotta at least know what the creep is wrong.

Just for once i want to say

The World Doesnt Revolve Around You All The Time!

Bye.

ISA Pageant ISA 2006

2006-05-21T19:27:00.000-07:00

Being the only judge is not an easy job.
I still have to do alot of observation.
I still ask around for opinions ALOT.
But I already come up with one title winner which is
MISS PHOTOGENIC
Hint:
Well she is someone who loves to take loads of picture
and the camera loves her. :))

I have made a 20sec video compilation of her diff kinds of photo.
Wait for it.

Im still at school.

Bye.

I Won't See You Tonight

2006-05-20T07:37:00.000-07:00

My uncle passed away on Thursday morning 0440hours.
I went to his house straight on Wednesday evening after school.
I even bought him JollyBean's TauHui and Soya Milk in the hopes that he might just be able to eat.
But as soon as I arrived, I got to know that he cudnt wake up and cudnt respond to our calls. My family came at 6++pm.
I was so sad to see him like that.
Though we werent that close, but still he's the closest uncle most sensible one yet.
On Wednesday night, my family went home at about midnight.
The next morning we received the news that he passed away.
So at about 0600am we left home.
He was dikebumikan after zuhur.

Avenged Sevenfold - I Won't See You Tonight
Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
An while I'm gone everything will be alright

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

2006-05-17T08:51:00.000-07:00

I just got back from my uncle's home.
And I have never seen a man so frightened in my entire life.
Well, you see my uncle is very sick. and frightened.
I just cud see it in his eyes when he looked at me.
Another second when he looked at me, he broke down.
I cud have been his child.
When he was married, his wife cudnt get pregnant for medical reasons.
So he sorta begged my mom to make me his child when i was a newborned.
Change my name and everything.
But of cos, my parents didnt allow it.
So then, he adopted another kid.
And now she's only 10 years old.
I cud have been in her place right now.
Gawd.
Its really freaky to think about it.

Another thing is.
Well..
My entry "I'm a hypocrite, who's not?!"
Hyprocite = a person who professes beliefs and opinions that he does not hold.
There are people when they dont like something they'd say and really hold strongly to it, right?
But.
I cant understand myself.
Like, when I dont like someone, i still cud have a nice convo with that person becos, well, there shud be at least something nice about that person.
Yes i do believe tt no matter how bad their mouth cud be or how their attitude sucks, I just think there must at least be good in them.
So i always confuse myself and make stupid conclusion about me.
Of cos I didnt want to label myself.
I can totally swear that most of the time when I was professing something that I cudnt hold on to, I just want things to be better and not make matters worst.
When this happen, I wud usually just keep quiet and agreeing.
Otherwise, Im just dead serius abt wat i say.

Bye.

The PussyCat Dolls - Button

2006-05-16T07:29:00.000-07:00

2006-05-16T00:06:00.000-07:00

Craziness. I spotted this surfing at you tube
I believe this bunch of bafoons belong to my campus. different dept.
Gees.

Take a look.

ISA Pageant

2006-05-14T20:48:00.000-07:00

I have about 12 titles to give away.
Like Miss Brains, Miss Long Legs etc.

Feedback me if you have more ideas on the title.

2006-05-14T19:48:00.000-07:00

I'm a hypocrite
Yes.
Who's not?!
I'm only trying to make things better..

Surfable Sites

2006-05-14T07:19:00.000-07:00

Here's something to help you when you just dont know what to surf on the net.

www.i-dressup.com
[dress up models in designer clothes - basically any fashion labels; from vintage to posh]
[sometimes uploading is a problem]

www.stardoll.com
[dress up any celebrities in super cool clothes]

www07.rockyou.com
[Video maker; like youtube..not so much]
[credits: sikinos]

www.habbohotel.com
[Virtual chatroom]

2006-05-14T03:24:00.000-07:00

ISA Pageant
Why not?

COMING SOON
@ http://notordynarii.blogspot.com

Hm.

2006-05-13T03:38:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt like you've tried so hard and so much to make something work and then one day you just feel like throwing it all away?
Hm.
How do you know that he's the one for you?
Sources said, Look into his eyes and trust your instincts.
Thats what i'm trying to do now.
Both of them.

Bye.

SKIN

2006-05-10T07:12:00.000-07:00

This is just temporary.

2006-05-10T06:04:00.000-07:00

One mocha Ice Blend and Oreo Cheesecake for dinner.

Out and About on Weekends 6 & 7 May 2006.

"You love me with all your heart, I trust you with all of mine..."

Bye.

2006-05-08T19:49:00.000-07:00

can a friendship turn sour over a boy?
As pathetic as it sounds, yes it does happen.
So R may LIKED D's current boyfriend..hey its no big deal..
it was all in the past..
R moved on and she's super ok now.
but wat made R not ok
is the fact that D kept asking R over and over again whether was R ok about the whole thing..
and R said she was ok of cos..but u noe shes a human being so she felt a bit betrayed..
BUT THE VERY IMPORTANT POINT IS R is so cool about D being with O and thats it..
No one should ask anymore.
Yes i know D was being concern and all
D cud have asked once or twice but she did asked alot of times..
which definitely annoyed R..
who to blame?
i dont know..
its how you look at the whole situation seriously..
What i know my friend, R, wudnt stoop so low to fight or break a friendship over a guy..well, D is my friend to but i dont know why she's not talking to me anymore..well i dont know..im not directly involved but im closed to R..

Hm, im not able to update more becos my comp kinda go busted..
well..the whole reason why im writing something which isnt my affair at all its becos R just doesnt have the guts to explain herself..and similarly, i dont want people to have the wrong judgement of this silly situation..there's 2 sides in every story and this is one of the sides..and if you happen to hear the other side of the story from anyone else and read this entry..i think now you know better..
of cos, there's defnitely no one to blame..
its just natural selection in action..

[we just dont get it]

2006-04-16T04:56:00.000-07:00

30 things we (girls) shud noe bout boys.

*1. We're not as pervert as you think we all
are.

*2. No matter what YOU say, your ex-boyfriend
IS
a LOSER.

*3. We like you to give us hugs and kisses
sometimes too.

*4. Don't argue with us when we call you
beautiful.

*5. Don't treat us like crap, what goes
around comes around.

*6. We know you're pretty, that's one of
the reason's we're going out with you.

*7. Don't go into detail about your period.
It scares us.

*8. If you have cramps and we ask you
what's wrong, just tell us it's that time of the
month and nothing more.

*9. If you really liked us for us, you would
let us think that our mustache, beard, or
sideburns looked cool.

*10. We never shave our legs. So get
over it.

*11. NEVER ask us if you can put makeup
on us. It's just wrong.

*12. Don't make bets about us, because
one of your friends will tell us, if you don't.

*13. When we tell you that you're not fat,
believe us.

*14. We absolutely do not care about the
Backstreet Boys, *NSYNC, 98 Degrees,B5, or
what any other guy looks like for that matter.

*15. We may not be able to pee accurately all
of
the time, but at least we can stand up and go
pee.

*16. Just cause you think you're always right,
doesn't mean that you don't have to apologize
when you do something "wrong."

*17. You expect us to say and do sweet things
for
you, but it would be nice if you did the same
every
once in a while. We like to know that you love
us.

*18. We can't always be spontaneous, so try
to
help us make the plans sometimes.

*19. Don't ask us to beat up another guy for
you,
cause you might get what you wish for.

* 20. Never kick us in the nuts "just to see
what
we would say". That's just mean.

*21. Never pretend like you are going to break
up
with us and laugh when we believe you.

*22. Pamela Anderson's breasts aren't fake
anymore, but we like yours better anyway.

*23. Size doesn't matter, except to idiots who
don't
want a relationship.

*24. PMS is not an excuse.

*25. If you want us to put the seat down when
we're done, you should put it up when
you're done.

*26 Don't tell us how cute your ex-boyfriend
was.
That doesn't turn us on.

*27. And always remember: The way to a guys
heart is through his stomach..... and maybe....
oh
nevermind.

*28. NEVER ask us to kiss other guys. You
might
be that comfy with your friends, but to us it's
just
wrong.

*29. We always notice how funny it is after
your rip
out our heart, stick it down our throat and still
want
to be friends.

*30. And last but not least: We know you're
not
always right, but we'll pretend like you are
anyway.

CONCLUSION
Useful. Cos once i asked to put make-up on my boyfriend and thought it was ok.
and now i know its just wrong. hah.

feel free to post on ur entry.

bye.

Fears

2006-04-16T04:47:00.000-07:00

FEAR:
[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single
[ ] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] being put to sleep (anesthesia)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[x] fire
[ ] water
[x] the ocean, deep water
[ ] pools
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] mice/rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] demons or evil
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] Hell
[ ] Heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] being sexually assulted
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes
[x] hurricanes
[ ] being punished
[x] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[x] snakes
[x] sharks
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] fear
[ ] being alone
[ ] losing my friends
[x] being blind to things
[x] being deaf
[x] growing up
[x] being murdered in my sleep

Gosh. i fear 15 out of 66 things. Gees..
what abt you?
Feel free to post this to your entry.

Bye.

Wrong Impression

2006-03-23T18:28:00.000-08:00

So i got myself a new skin.
that is the same with izzah's..haha
i'd change it if my internet's working hehe..
and its hard to change skin using sch's comp..
bt izzah's skin is modified so it wud be a bit diff..
anyway it doesnt matter.. :)
im way lazy to edit the blogskin as for now..
i dont even include my profile on the skin..
haha tats how lazy i am..
and yeah with exams arnd the corner..
AND IVE YET TO KNOW IF MY APPEAL WAS SUCCESSFUL OR NOT!

just now mrs quek asked mrs heng, our section head, when will the appeal list come out..and mrs heng said, she cant come out with the list today becos shes confused..
wtf! today's friday and on monday, im having my bzc..she said tat we come on monday and if we got debarred, the facilitator wud ask us to go home..
wtf! y cant she just tell us? i mean if i got to know which subject i got debarred, i wudnt wanna waste my time pressing my brains and studying for tat subject, rite?
wakauz..

1st April 2006 - Hollaback Crew Semi-Finals @ Padang
25 April 2006 - Operation Rockstar @ ITE Simei

dear's brother, malik will be participating in the hollaback crew semis, come and support..

see ya!
bye.

{battle of the blondes}____ParisVSJessica

2006-03-21T00:29:00.000-08:00

cOnClUsIoN: Jessica, o'cos
YOU?

{slutty or sexy}

2006-03-21T00:21:00.000-08:00

hm.
i wudnt want my bf to be seduced like tat.
jinkieness.
think abt it.

2006-03-20T23:48:00.000-08:00

trying to put something up.

2006-03-20T23:39:00.000-08:00

yeah ok so im in PR class
im dying to use the internet.
haha~! mine's been infected with the stupid spyware
jessie's gone home now so my sis cud sleep on the bed again.
mom's gonna get retreched soon.
well.
it was expected.
her workplace was carrying out some serious retrenchment exercise
and my mom was one of them to survive the longest.

remember about questpoint?
i cud see everyone's getting along better now..
haha..
so you see..
its just natural selection in action..
i dont know how sadie said it..
but yea its totally natural..
but im glad to see everyone's talking again.
hehe.

now im still waiting for my appeal to be approve by
the section head.

i cud die waiting.
not really.

bye.

{beauty on the fire}

2006-03-20T23:33:00.000-08:00

Here it comes again
cannot out run my desire
cover my decent
and throw the
Beauty on the fire
drawn towards the edge
Do I assume I could fly?
Every secret shared
Why do I drink
the feelings dry
Don't go too far
limitation scars
Tonightt
Could I be lost forever
To drown my soul in
Sensory
Pleasure
Here it comes again
You raise the bar
even Higher
I cannot catch my breath
so throw
The Beauty on the Fire
Don't push too hard
limitations scars.

{natalie imbruglia}

the Things i dO________________________hurtS him the Most. funny thing is i knoW abt iT

2006-03-19T16:55:00.000-08:00

exams arnd the corner.
im in class
got to know i was debarred for all 3 subs.
wrote an appeal letter
and now waiting for the result from my section head.

*sigh*
nowadays apsal asyik nak gadoh je.
aku pon tk paham.
aku tau aku punye sala selalunye..
orng susa nak paham aku
bile aku main2 aje, drng take me so seriously.
and wats with always saying that my blank expression is
anger or unsatisfaction-face. wtf!
anyways..the things i do ..i dont know..may hurt him all the time..
but im also trying to make things right and not do the fuck wrong things again..but i guess its in me to speak that way or to act that act..its me im sorry..
i dont wanna lose him and my heart is already for him..
but i guess im just not the gf material..
y does lust exist in this world?
i just wanna screaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamm!!

2006-03-09T19:41:00.000-08:00

Darn.
My comp had to break down when I have my last presentation to complete.
It just had to break down when I need to complete my e-learning.
well.
its a cruel world.
And I cant blogg.
Boo-Hoo..
Now im at school, Business Comm. *sigh*
In lab, trying to complete that darn e-learning thing which my teacher stress on so much. geez..
bye.

wait and bleed

2006-03-07T22:33:00.000-08:00

I've felt the hate rise up in me.
Kneel down and clear the stones of leaves.
I wander out where you cant see.
Inside my shell I wait and bleed.
I wipe it off on tile, the light is brighter this time
Everything is 3D blasphemy
My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up
This is not the way I pictured me
I CAN'T CONTROL MY SHAKES!
How the hell did I get here?
Something about this, so very wrong...
I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this
Is it a dream or a memory?
GET OUTTA MY HEAD CUZ I DON'T NEED THIS!
Why I didn't I see this?
I'm a victim - Manchurian Candidate
I - HAVE - SINNED - BY - JUST
Makin' my mind up and takin' your breath away
GOODBYE!
You haven't learned a thing.
I haven't changed a thing.
My flesh was in my bones.
The pain was always free.

-slipknot

Why DisneyLand? One day, when I think back, I'd laugh about this.

2006-03-02T19:39:00.000-08:00

how funny it seemed when a class got unhappy becos of a pathetic flying fox? Well.
only abt 7 out of 21 peeps got on the flying fox thing cos there wasnt enuff time to cater all of us.
i was number 10. but.
when a few of my classmates were not satistfied tat they got the last few to go, i steppd down and decided not to "fly" cos i tried it on past camps. but NONE took up my space.
well.
why shud they be unhappy?
if u noe wat flying fox is, its the most exciting and the most anticipating activity of the day.
yesterday, there was 3 stations. 1st, go abt 3 storeys high and walk on the horizontal ladder or jump off a log and catch this "pull-up" thing. 2nd, walk on logs pretending u're stranded on an island. 3rd, flying fox.
see, wat i mean?
there were some who were rushing for the 1st places.
and for a few might think that it was a bit childish-immature thing to do?
hmm, remember what happened at STATION 2? think abt it.
divided into 15. and my group went 2nd and cos of time constraint, 2nd group didnt get to complete the log thing. shud we even complain abt the scorching sun?
so, right now.
its more of the eye-rolling, long faces, sarcasms and more sarcasms in the atmosphere.
ya, i got over it.
i laughed to my sleep yesterday.
i'll conclude.
it wasnt an act of childishness-immaturity (if theres such word, haha)
but this is all just fate tat some didnt get to try a few things.
and who wudnt get pissed when they ddidnt get their way.
hmm, think about it.

im just waiting for them to be "OK" again.
HOPEFULLY.
world peace.
mrs loh, class bonding? shud giv a try. hah.

2006-02-14T00:33:00.000-08:00

I just cudnt care less.
fuck
bye

BitterSweet

2006-02-13T23:30:00.000-08:00

Let me update
completed my BZC presentation about planets..
Lame I know..
but its ok..
i saw my marks. and I got 82.
not bad.
some of them scored about 95 something.
Now i got 2 more projects to go..
I was so frustrated with Sikin when she cudnt pass me the PR project..
haiz..but its ok now. no more grudges.. Peace gurl..
Pity Di and CT, they're involved in the games committee for BL orientation camp and Farewell Party for Seniors. so im expecting them to be so busy like bees..
i really dont want to pressurize me so much so i gave them a choice to do the easier task for EVM project...

god! during PR, theres this quartet..
they sang for Valentines Day..
hehe.
One of my classmates actually dedicated 2 songs for the whole class..
thanks fangyin aka xtina
it was sweet..
:)

skrng i feel abit affected by my lil brother..
This is to him, if he's reading this..
This is the truth..
My mom sacrificed her career when he was young to give him all the attention a toddler needs. She gave him almost everything he wants even if it means to go the distant. He's like the apple of the eye..trust me..
I know that he's pressurized with BGR problems and growing up..
I wish I knew what he wants so I cud make things better
but he just wudnt open up..
I just hate it when he lies to my dad.
my dad loves him more. yes dad is biased. but dad still loves us.
Just looking at dad's tired face everyday after work and to have him lied to..and feeling disappointed..i just cant take it..
Bro, pls open up.
I trust tat he's a nice person.
and i want him to know that lies wont help u..
it will destroy u..
I noe im not perfect..
i noe ive done alot of mistakes when i was growing up..
trust me, losing someone's trust is one thing u dont want to lose from anyone priceless like ur own family..
seriously bro, take it from me..i think u noe me well enuff to noe how i "wasted" my youth..
When I was then, I always thot that whatever my actions were, it cud never effect other people..but hell I was wrong..
Right now, i prefer to remain as a reserved person and see the examples arnd me to live this cruel world..
Even the smallest thing we do, can have great impact on someone's life..positive or negative things..bro think abt it..think abt our dear parents who have done alot for our family to be this strong..

hmm..another thing is i noticed.
my class.
well.
im going to be very careful with my words.
well.
here's the thing.
i like my classmates.
very supportive, sweet, and everything..
but lately.
its like there are some bad vibes arnd.
but i dont noe whats going on in there..
im always the last 2 noe..ask my friends how I lag abt "politics".
well like i learnt, its better to know less than u know so much..
I totally have no grudges with any of my classmates..
world peace.

bye.

2006-02-02T20:32:00.000-08:00

Firstly HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY MANN! best of luck dude! Rock on! \m/\m/

i cant wait for dear to come home..
kinda miss him so much you noe..
i love him
i appreciate him for what he's done to make this relationship works..
i hope he knows.
Even tho i cud hardly xpress myself to him, i can never think of leaving him..

Dear, i appreciate you so much..You are my everything..

Bye.

F*ck You

2006-01-26T08:39:00.000-08:00

You swore, i hope u get retribution shitface..

"Life sucks, but its up to you to color it yourself"- Taken from Sexy Sk's blog

I dont know why but I agree to her most recent post about backstabbin and gossiping..You rock girl..

To someone I trusted which was a big mistake!
Thanks alot f*ckface..
I hope u're happy now telling things abt me
which you arents supposed to tell..
You even swore..
Great.
My whole world is surrounded by fuckers.
So am I.
Thankfully, there are some who arent.
Thanks.
Bye.

Girls Not Grey

2006-01-24T20:19:00.000-08:00

So Mrs Quek came to a decision to actually split my EVM group.
Initially my group consists of Rehan, Hana, Fariha, Sikin, Nisha and myself.
But now Rehan and myself joined Diyana and Ct Sue..we'll be doing abt the Jan Intake Orientation 06..So left Fariha, Sikin, Nisha and Hana in the grp..
So what happened was Fariha and Sikin are constantly absenting themselves for their own reasons..my attendance is also not that gd either..so mrs quek just decided to make them into a group with shalyn..Nisha will be joining mai's group while hana will be joining mine..

Another news
BZC - 88%
PR - 90%
EVM - 90%
my attendance.

I realli need someone to motivate me and push me to skl..
Any takers?

bye.

L.O.V.E Boyfriend

2006-01-23T18:57:00.000-08:00

How shall I put it in words?
Girlfriends, if u have a nice boyfriend and treats you with respect, pls appreciate him no matter how much you think he's too nice or whatsoever..really appreciate, seriously..
I think when you know you cant be with someone whom you love and happens to be someone who is really nice and treats you well, you might be as devastated as I am right now..
What am I to do?
I cudnt stop shedding my tears yesterday when I look at his face..
He told me to be strong and dont blame fate for this..
And he told me not to cry..
Yes Im still with him but..
At the back of my mind, i cant pretend that its not there!
He fits the bill of my dream guy..and I've always asked myself before I met him
this question, even if i found my dream guy wud I be able to be with him forever?
Now Im not sure about the answer..
Yesterdae was an important appoinment at TTSH
Tat was why I didnt go to sch..
Just in case you dont know
I love him..

Bye.

Whole Again

2006-01-14T01:39:00.000-08:00

I think I might need a counsellor..
well.
the problem with me is..
I want to study but
i lost interest aredy..
Another thing is..
I know I'm a loyal person BUT
i cant commit..
How's that?
Other than that I really
dont know what the F*CK is wrong with me..
So ok..
generally my family's ok,
and i have a nice boyfriend..
what more cud i ask for, rite?
oh god.
i feel so weak inside sometimes.
I thot puberty was the toughest times
of my life..
but no
now, i feel like i'm going thru the
toughest period of growing up..

can somebody PLEASE! tell me what is wrong with ME?

bye

Falling to Grey

2006-01-11T16:46:00.000-08:00

I'm only living in a dreamland this season.
well its cold and comfy.
My type of weather to really stay in and chill..
Making it more "exciting", i've got piles of
sch work to complete.
My mom felt sick during hari raya haji.
And worst, syam was the only one who was at home.
I was at pandan gardens with sis and dear
for Aliff's bdae [he's so adorable]
Well the only reason she felt sick is cos she
ate too much oily food.
Its the 'kambing' season afterall.
'Kambing' cooked in briyani.
too oily and spicy.
She got her gastric attacks.
went to the doctor and got the same liquid medicine.
and a jab.
My mom is the type of person who eats alot, and i mean ALOT alot
when she is so stressed up.
well i learnt, u can only watch over a person but u can never choose for them.

sigh
got so much to complete
and ive been missing classes
becos..
the funny thing is
i want to continue studying
but i've lost interest in studying.
How?
You tell me..

bye.

NightWish

2006-01-09T04:09:00.000-08:00

What the heck am I thinking?
The urge of being somebody i'm not
grows even stronger everyday.
God. I'm weak.
Its just lately.
The words that came out from my mouth are just
craps.
I cant even remember what I said 5 minutes ago.
What am I?
A loser.
I wish that someday I can become someone better.
or maybe even somebody useful, for that matter.
The mistakes that I made was seriously stupid.
or either that, its all lame.
I wish I could curse the whole world. sometimes.
yes. imperfection sucks.
People dont want to befriends with me
becos i suck.
I used to think people dont want to
talk to me becos i'm ugly.
but no. the reason was worst than i thot.
That is why. I have always preferred to be
quiet. than say the wrong things at the wrong time.
What I've learnt?
Now, nothing.
but PATIENCE.
How I wish everything can be like before..

the voice within

2006-01-02T23:34:00.000-08:00

lemme get this straight..
i have a loud voice..
this is the way i speak..
to you and everybody else..
i never have the intention to hurt..
atau bagi orng salah paham with the way i am..
i cant help it if people get hurt..
or even misunderstood my ways..
becos when it happened i wasnt even aware of it..
and then after all that, i got some weird behaviours frm people..
i cant help it if they cant take the way i am..
becos we are just acquintances..
i might just forget that i ever met them when im done over here..
so if they think they want to change my ways to work well with me..
its never possible in a short time...
in my part i will try to work my ways to suit their ways for awhile which i not easy..
i really hope in their part they will stop getting me wrong..
i never said anything to hurt them tho..
so if u feel that u're the one..DROP ME A MSG AT THE TAGLINE..
bye!

Its Just Emotion

2005-12-19T19:11:00.000-08:00

Clueless.
I'm dead bored.
Being myself will only hurt the person I love most.
So.
What am I to do?

the other time i got my PR revision paper, to my horror (crap!), i cudnt even one question believe it or not..i tried to understand what the f*ck he was trying to explain everytime but i failed..
so now im trying to make up for the lost time by writing notes...im at unit 1 almost 2..
there are alot of things i need to cover..
i dont want to fail my semester becos of some poor teaching methods..

Underground Skate Jam

2005-12-17T07:04:00.000-08:00

I spent the whole day at Tampines..
there was a skate competition organised by syed..
so my bro and dear took part..
it wasnt as crowded as when it was at downtown east or YP Vans Comp..
it was alright..
too bad they didnt get to finish the competition..
cos it was raining heavily half way..
so we ended up scattered arnd the area under the blks..
just lepak-ing, waiting for the judges and the organiser to say something..
so they came to a decision and told the competitors to come back again tomorrow at 1000hrs..
rehan was there..
all in all it was alright...

i dont noe why its in me to speak the way i speak..
i really dont..
pardon me if u're offended in anyways..
cos i mean no harm, seriously.

so well, dad got bonus.
bro got engaged qd.
mom promised to buy me dgcam's batt cos mine was spoilt..
lucky him. da rezeki.
yes im jealous.
cos i had to work my butt out to get the phone that i wanted n6230 which i kinda gave it away for T630 which i carelessly lost at sch..
argh! life's heartache!
b y e

p/s: tats my bro pic on the flyer.. :D

teenage drama queen....NOT!

2005-12-16T07:04:00.000-08:00

so my class won 2nd place for the inter-class-admin skit competition..
WooOhOo~! Free at last! *victory dance*
im never ever ever going to act again..
im kinda tired of getting the butterflies in my stomach and feeling freaky nervous..
well it went alright..i thot for everyone else went smoothly tho accotding to ogy she messed up her line a wee bit but it wasnt too obvious only cos she's very gd in acting out her role as THE DEVIL..

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED IN THE MORNING

- i reached sch at abt 0815
- that made me missed assembly
- which means i was late
- ISA went to C2-02 to get ready
- mrs quek was totally cool abt letting us use her period to get ready for the skit
- as i was hungry, i went to the canteen to grab something to eat with Wawa
- after that went up to class to do some touch-up..abit only..
- all the gurls looked fab
- ogy (the devil) looked totally devilish and gothic. i lurvee her net-stockings.
- wani (the angel). i dont noe what she used but her face was glowing like an angel.
- hana (mrs decruz, da teacher). goodness me, a teacher which i think the boys wud be concentrating more to. haha.
- sikin (Hope, 3 students). she cracked me up. totally.
- sally & ayu (Tanie & Kat, 3 students). umm. 2 thumbs up gurls~!
- rehan (Michelle). what happened to the u-left-ur-shoe-on-the-stairs-while-making-the-entrace part? but u were great~!!!
- haida & charmaine (directors). *3 cheers*. pls dont come to me again ok. hehe.

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED DURING THE SKIT
- more butterflies in my stomach
- i was nervous like HELL!
- i never felt THAT nervous before.
- i scribbled my script all over my left palm
- just in case i forgot them
- stupid microphone!
- it cudnt work the 1st time i wanted to use it
- so i ended up having bloopers and giggles from the audience.
- the crew was amazingly co-operative.
- the team-work was so there.
- everyone was participating
- and it really made me see our class spirit and the togetherness.
well we might not agree on certain things but i did see it.
i enjoyed myself. i came out of my shell. alittle bit. but it was cool.
so we got 2nd. that was good enuff.
well as for myself i thot there were some classes who did better than us,
maybe it was our 'dry iced' effect on one of the scenes..hahaha..
it didnt work but gd effort..
[campus manager said so!]

AFTER the skit comp, we were dismissed by our course manager, mrs heng..good thing..
i was already late to meet dear at CDC for his check up.
so it turned out that his red blood cells are smaller..
the iron in his body are ok. but the doc said its a lil bit pale.
and his red blood cells are a lil bit lesser. nothing major.
the doc also said that its common to find situation like this in spore.
that is for girls. cos she said girls in spore dont eat much.
so for a boy of his age, its not common thats why they are "investigating".
so he got iron pills. and appointment again next month on the 9th.
hopefully things wud turn out ok.
things are a lil bit diff between him and me.
bt we're still ok.
bye.

Thalassemia

2005-12-14T01:56:00.000-08:00

well..just came back from the appointment..
so i lied..
sorry friends..
dear had to go for his appointment and i just had to follow..
so he had blood test..
and his blood count result showed that his red cells are lesser than normal people..
which i think means the white cells is more..
i asked mom and she said he betta watch what he eats and take extra care..
she totally scared me when she said if he dont, might just end up with leukemia..
whatever it is, i just have to make sure he goes for his appointment on friday..
to know what is really going on..
so when he goes for friday's checkup, he'll take blood test again for Thalassemia Screen and Reticulocyte Count..
well thalassemia is a genetic blood disorder..so the doctor will check on that..
reticulocyte is an immature red blood cell containing a network of filaments or granules..
i feel sad when he falls sick..
and i SWEAR i wont stop taking care of him..
he's my first and he'll be forever mine..
i truly cherish and love him..
i cant describe..
bye.

fishhead curry

2005-12-13T00:40:00.000-08:00

so mr foong is babbling..
and no ones listening..
[what is so suprising abt that]

keep on whispering in my ears.

2005-12-08T19:31:00.000-08:00

WHAT'S HAPPENING NOW
dead bored.
in lab, business communication class.
supposed to complete assignment 4 on reply to enquiry.
totally not in the mood to do anything at all..'cept 4 blogging..
rehan, sikin, hana and fariha didnt come to sch today.
i dont know why.
i wasnt told anything.
but its ok.
school is almost over!
in 1 hr time..

i found out something about lil' bro. again. i want to bust him but i know mom and dad arent going to believe me.
well i came across, aisya and my bro's blog. the latest update was very suprising and if mom read it i noe she'll be disappointed.
aisya and my bro are no longer together. pls, aisya's only 15 and my bro is 17.
all that was written by my bro were lies, nothing but lies. i know my mom wont stoop that low. how cud he write something like that abt my parents, my family. is it becos he wants to get sympathy from that poor girl.
now i dont care whether he reads this or not.

he wrote : i sanggup jual hp yg u nk lik kan nanti utk my mum
the fact: no truth to what he wrote..my mom is not that selfish to ask to sell away his stuff or any of our stuff..

he wrote: skarang my family needs sumones help
the fact: not true at all..yes, we may not be rich but we're still doing ok..my parents believe that family problems shud stay inside..

he wrote:my mum n dad nye gaji die tahan
the fact: never happened

he wrote: my mum n dad nye gaji die tahan
the fact: not true at all

he wrote: everytime i ckp lom dpt dorang sedih tp dorang ckp jgn lang u
the fact: the thing is EVEN IF MY FAMILY IS SUFFERING FROM FINANCIAL PROBLEM, WE WUDNT GO TO THE EXTENT TO ASK FROM OUTSIDERS..kite pon ade maruah..and i strongly believe by him telling aisya all this for his personal gain..

he wrote: Be strong syg,dun b weak,if u r weak,ppl will do the same ting as dey do it to me...
the fact: to my parents, he's like the golden egg..get it? he gets almost everything that he asked for..he has my parents attention..even if my parents are almost broke, sooner or later, he'll get the things that he wants..talk abt how much my parents spent on his skateboarding equipment..pff~! he only brought this upon himself

i am not here to embarrass or even talk abt him. yes i love him, he is my brother afterall..but at the back of my mind, my parents deserve better than this..seriously, they are the most understanding parents ever..they trust us with our freedom..only most of the time, some people just want to abuse it..i dont understand..well i guess he just has his own problems which he decided NOT to tell us..i mean, sissy and i tried talking things, but he just wudnt let it out or even listen to us..well im not perfect either, but all of these, really bothers me so much..i pity mom..she worked hard trying to make ends meet..she may appear so strong on the outside but she's a soft-hearted person i tell ya..same goes to my dad..i love them both and i love my brother too..
i wish i know what to do.
i really wish i cud help.
i really really wish that i know what my brother really wants.
just something i thot i'd like to share..
world peace.
bye.

skinnie

2005-12-07T22:50:00.000-08:00

WHAT'S HAPPENING NOW?
in events management class..
supposed to complete some project..
2 in a group..
abt survey for an event..
i was sleepy the whole day..
i cant wait to get home, i tell ya..
i'm not in the mood to go out with da gurls to visit wawa's father today..
becos i have nothing to wear..
erm..really..
i dont feel comfortable going out with my friends who are so stylish..
even tho i am big, i feel small..
just some of things i thot i'd like to share..
maybe i'll go on my own on Sunday or something..
its a pity really for her to miss school since last week..
being by her father's side..
now i know..she may look strong on the outside..
brb.
gotta go home now.
bye.

life size

2005-12-07T16:27:00.000-08:00

WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY?
i had to make excuses for coming late to sch twice.
hmm..i was supposed to be in class by 1015hrs but i came in abt 1035hrs..
of cos, my classmates knew i overslept..
the day before i came in late too..
[Tsktsk..*shakes head*]
the same thing, class started at 1015hrs..
but then i came in at lunch 1215hrs..
And yes, I did overslept..
I cud have reached sch at abt 1100hrs
BUT
things happened
like my skirt was dirty so i had no choice but to wear
the longer one..
not that its wrong wearing longer skirt but
i look like one messed up kid..

MOVING FORWARD TO 15MINUTES LATER

i took 410, listening to BEP - my hump [i'm addicted to it for da mo.]
and then dear called..
so when he called, i tried to multi-task
FYIi only had one stop frm the bus inter.
i kept my mp3, trying to talk to him and searching for the bell to press so i cud alight..
well guess what, i did the 1st 2 but i cudnt manage to find a bell anywhere near me..
so the bus didnt stop and i missed my stop..
gee..
and the next stop wsnt a walking distance to my school..it went into the neighborhood..crap~!
LESSON - DONT PROCASTINATE!

MOVING FORWARD TO LUNCH

i sat with hana, rehan, fariha & sikin..
next to our table were ayu, izzah, nurul & nurul, fad, yanee and i cudnt remember who..
i tried green apple & celery juice which, according to rehan, the taste was nasty..
i bought it anyway becos i have a "goal" which is too embarrasing to tell..
anyways, to me, it didnt tastes as nasty as what rehan told me..it was actually alright and i might just buy it again today for lunch..hmm
so we talked..um, not really..most of the talkings was done by fariha..interesting things to tell..really..
interesting new things..hmm..
i wud post it if it was abt me but its kinda disrespectful to post abt her situation so..
LESSON - DONT GIVE IN TO PEER PRESSURE, IF YOU DO THEN YOU'RE WEAK!
- WHAT GOES ARND COMES ARND, WHAT GOES UP MUST COME DOWN
then after we talked and talked..we planned to visit wawa's dad who's still in ICU earlier but after looking at the tv guide, the programmes were all interesting and i really wud want to watch it..esp, america's next top model..oh man, my fave reality show! i just want to be like KAHLEN one day *dreamy* YEAH RIGHT!
in the end, sikin, hana and myself decided to go today while fariha and rehan might just go yesterday..

MOVING FORWARD TO SKIT REHEARSAL

i didnt do as bad as i thot..but wasnt as good as ogy and wani <-natural born actresses-> gd jobs gurlies..
i got the role "JILL".
its like a goody2 role.
sally said 'just be ur own character'.
i seriously dont see myself as the goody2 type..maybe reserved but never goody2..
i got seriously shaky when i had to do a scene with Rehan (Michelle). it was a very long scene, only for abt 3 minutes..my voice were shaking, my legs were shaking..haha~!
before the rehearsal..i saw a guy who looked like CHARLIE from the brit band, BUSTED.. noticed him since the day i bought my uniform before term starts..
well..not as cute as DEAR tho..haha

MOVING FORWARD AFTER SCHOOL

everyday i come home, i shack..
everyday i go to school, i feel so slack..
haha..
so i got home..i watched tv and my mom cooked something delicious
i dont know what its called but its seriously scrumptous..
and then i watched more tv..talked to mom of cos..
haha..
then at nite abt 2130hrs, i went out to fetch dear from mandai..
becos of some reasons..
i noe sissy wasnt too happy abt it cos its sort of late..
mom was okay with it and dad was chilled..
gd..
i missed him so much..
when i saw him he looked damn tired..
he told me he got so much work to do..
its just lucky he finished early today which was at 2200hrs..
normally, it wud be at midnite..
pity him..*sigh*
i really do..
we hanged out till 2 in the morning..
we talked endlessly...
i liked his effort..
even tho he was sleepy, he stayed up to spend time with me..
honestly i was tired too..
i love him..
*sigh*
cant wait till friday..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
WHAT HAPPENED TODAY?
im in Business Communication class right now..
i have no say with the teacher..
hmm..
im slackening but seriously trying my best to cope with everything..
aunties and apeks was constantly bumping my shoulders when i was on my way to work..
i was seriously pissed..
they were so kiasu to get a seat inside the cramped mrt..
i'll update u later..
i love him..
but aunties and apeks, pls..if its already cramp, it means no seat so just come in and relax ok...
bye.

hysteria.

2005-12-06T20:28:00.000-08:00

nothing to update uh..
days occupied with school work and more school work..
now i got myself into the skit competition..
what was i thinking?
i'm not an acting material..
drama is so not my thing..
talk abt stage fright and zero confidence abt myself..
they didnt have enuff people to take up the characters
as 2 of the casts' fathers were admitted to the hospital..
*sigh* i wudnt want to be in their shoe
but i feel for them...
tonite, hana, sikin, fariha and myself will be visiting wawa's father at NUH..
as for haida's father, i heard that he's at home already..
*prayers for them both*

i dont know what's gotten into my mom
BUT
she was already talking abt the 'future' to me...
eek!
the marriage-kids-commitment-career future talk..
well, its creepy still..
mom said im turning 20 in 7 months..so i shud think abt the future..
~bleh~

I MISS YOU la dear...
come home k...

tonite after going out with da gurls, meeting him at mandai..

i'm busier than ever.
so expect me to update this in 2 weeks or so la..
bye.

Get Well Soon

2005-11-13T23:18:00.000-08:00

dear is down with high fever.
im worried to death.
he's in the hospital.
and i just got back from there.
been there since morning when i accompanyed him.
eversince he was there, his temperature didnt subside.
it got even worst when i want to go home. it was 40.6.
[only cos my parents didnt allow me to overnight to look after him]
so he said it's ok. i can go home and rest. come tomorrow morning.
*sigh*
you only know how much that person means to you when they are in a situation like this.
*sobs*
hopes he get well soon.
2mrw the 1st thing in the morning, to TTHS

bye.

i miss you

2005-11-13T01:31:00.000-08:00

*sobs* its already past midnite and i can barely sleep.
i dont know if he's doing ok or if he already eaten.
*pouts* i need a hug.
it has been abt 24 hrs since we parted.
i miss him so dearly. i miss him so much.
i dont know if he's ok. i dont know if what he's doing.
i dont know whether he's asleep or not.
and he didnt call.
i need to hear his voice.
*grins*
but if i tell you he's only away in camp for a day on guard duty
pls dont flick me on my forehead.
LOL!
i told u i'm lame, didnt i?
stupid joke.
seriously, i cant sleep yet.
and yes i miss him but not as bad as i describe it.
see.
blogs are deceiving.
he'll be back when i wake up in the morning.
heehe.
ok im lame.
i get it.

bye.

sing for absolution.

2005-11-12T17:41:00.000-08:00

i cud hardly trust anyone ever since i was born. i mean its not that i am a mean girl or the people arnd me are just not worth my trust but its something that i wud call 'being put in the middle' can really screw up my day. slowly maybe people can gain mytrust. i even have serious problems with confidence and self-esteem. [put me infront of a crowd, i'd shake like a tree]
so u see, someone told me that somebody once dated other person's fiancee...
[actually that somebody didnt know that other person was a fiancee to some person]
but that somebody never mentioned that to me..and i'm really really curious..
too bad that somebody is not home tonight..that somebody will only be home tomorrow..
and i'm really waiting to make that somebody spill everything..but that somebody said before that everything that i needed to know is already spilled..
but i am very sure that somebody had every explaination for not telling me..
im seriously curious to the max.
look at me.
i'm aging.
with curiosity.
crap!

bye.

What is Atreyu?

2005-11-07T18:04:00.000-08:00

Hehe. Busy Busy Busy weeks.
I hafnt been able to update. almost everything this raya is manual. we re-create lots of things instead of buying new ones. seriously my furniture all looks like new. so we did the sofa. sew the curtains by hand. [just for this it took days to complete; phew~!].we baked cookies. we made a new table. hehe sort of. we cut the legs off so it turned out like a japanese table. but it looks cool.
well the hardwork kinda paid off. my house looks beautiful and spacious.
raya wasnt as anticipating as when we were kids. to be honest, when it was fasting month, we were more focusing on the stuff that needs to be done than the raya itself. hhaha weird. furthermore with the probs that each of us has.
then came raya. wow, new shoes, new clothes. hahaha i look fab. kidding! hehe well i love my new shoes. i still get the ka-ching while my sis a/cs was closed. haha too bad!
oh ya
how can i forget friends.
selamat hari raya!
sorry uh terlambat..

Bye.

Black Enamel

2005-10-31T16:56:00.000-08:00

well i guess its ok to not have everyone favouring u. but its hard especially when its between my family and dear's family. i smell some misunderstanding in the air. seriously. i thot dear's mom is nice. but there's something that i think she might not like abt me. i dont noe. maybe becos my mom's different. dear and i are seriously going thru some hard times but we're happy together. it is always abt something else tat wud make either one of us unhappy. hopefully when the time comes, everything will be settled. [when is that] gosh.
it is tough to make any fast decisions now, seeing that we're going thru a rough stage.
*sigh* why does it feel like its raining in my head. i dont understand.
world peace.

bye.

Lipgloss & Blushers

2005-10-24T22:31:00.000-07:00

ISA did a marathon for DR William Tan @ ITE Simei. in return we'll get a dragon boat activity and 3 weeks of exemption from SW (sports & wellness). *claps*
so basically now, the curtains are sewed but i only managed to bake 2 types of cookies. [why am i telling u that] anyway, i have nothing to do now. i received pixx from izzah. the one on dr tan's marathon and editted it.
now im tired aredy. i'll display at the bottom.
i talked to rahman yesterday on msn. pity him. hari raya no day off. haha. too bad dude! anyway rahman was a guy from work. right now he's serving SPF. -bleh-
im still unsure abt dear. well. he's been really nice to me. and i did the stupidiest mistake mankind can ever make. gawd~! our future? i am really realy unsure.

Not concerning what othas going to say

2005-10-20T23:54:00.000-07:00

frEeE at last! *victory dance* yay me! the hols are here. the acf paper was damn hard. i had to scratch my face, my head, my chin and did all those quirky puzzled expressions for 15 minutes before i cud figure out what the question really wants. well. i studied. i really did. the funny thing is what my teacher taught was different. the question format was different. one glance, and i felt like giving up. its so foreign man. what do u expect! i did accountings in secondary school and i did give up the first thing when i didnt understand a word mr george joseph [my ex-a/c teacher] was saying. AND I LEARNT MY LESSON. whether i like it or not, i have to swallow it becos my life/future depends on this. gosh! i hate it when im too thoughtful. well anyway back to the last paper, i really dont noe who to blame. me or ms lee? firstly ms lee taught us totally different format [u noe what they say about learning the tough ones first]. well i guessed ms lee shud have made us do the hard ones first. secondly. me, prolly i wasnt really studying enuff. hmm, tough.
anyways, my exams are over. and i have nothing to do. at home.
since im not working now anymore, i have aprox. 1 month to make my ass grow big.
for the mean time, i have the curtains to sew and cookies to bake.
im really really nervous.
my results is in a weeks' time.
YiKeS *bites fingernails*
darn it.

bye.

p/s: hope u like my skin.

No sleep tonight

2005-10-14T17:57:00.000-07:00

yes. u guessed it. im bored. i did my revisions for about 4 hrs and im tired.
pity my dad. gastric. hehe. and he kept questioning that 'ketik' bird. walau. that bird damn smart. very tame. btw, he's not a parrot. well u know i ask questions in the hopes of elicting an actual response. i dont know how dad did it. but its weird. anyway parrots dont speak cos speaking actually happens when u understand and parrots not understand cos their brain is the same size of their kuachi [their food]. so in conclusion, parrots dont speak, they imitate.
that ketik bird is not a parrot anyways. he looks like a cross between a canary and lovebird [not a dove; god's sakes, my sis thot it was a dove when i told her it looks like a lovebird and she got excite for no actual reason -bleh!-]. but he is the cutest thing ever.
well normally when u have pets, u find them. but this 'ketik' he found our home.
ahhh. bless.
bye.

Dancing with myself

2005-10-14T14:20:00.000-07:00

*yay* todae dear coming home. i cant wait. saturday breaking our fast at beach rd. god! i was craving for the mee goreng since july. -sheesh-. so the drama. seriously.
anyway. i got to do my revisions now. well. i thot e-tutor was supposed to be helpful.
i dont have a clue.

bye.

p/s: the donnas - dancing with myself RAWKS!

bye.bye.

Phantom of the opera

2005-10-13T22:41:00.000-07:00

good. now i bought myself creative muvo 2000. now all i hear is my music. no more nagging, gossips. hehe. at least when dear is not around i've got a friend. bleh~! anyway i skipped school again. so much for declaring myself a geek. waste time only 2 hrs at sch. so i went to citylink with ina and then bought the mp3 for myself and dear. [shhh! he doesnt know]
dear only called at 645pm. he said i was worried, where were u? didnt go to sch abe nak klua tak tau nak bilang sesape...i worried u know...asal tak bilang sape2 and then i said yela, nobody was at home ma, u want me to leave a msg with who...da la now i at home already right...why worry so much... and it goes on and on. i know he was tired and all. but hey, dont need to get all so the drama -sheesh- nvm. he's concern. he got a point. i love him. haha. yes i do.
so im suprising him with the mp3. same as mine. hehe hope he loves it [but not as much as he loves me] hahahaha bleh~!
im lame. forget it.

bye.

Our lady of sorrows

2005-10-12T06:02:00.000-07:00

yesterday i was supposed to be at sch till 1pm. but i skipped. heheh. dear dont know as well as mom. i told everybody abt my hp. they sympathiZed. bleh~! anyway i thot of going to hello!singtel today to collect my free sim card and prolly get myself the $0 hp but extend my contract for another 2 yrs.
yesterday i cooked for dear's siblings. it was a rush. his mom cudnt get home in time to cook for break fast. she reached home at 8pm. so i cooked chicken black pepper. i shud say the dish turned out the way i didnt expect it to be [since i dont really know how to cook]. it was damn delicious that dear tambah 3 times. but it was a little bit too spicy for the kids to eat. the dish finished anyway.
finally today my bursary can withdraw. *yayness* i still have to wait till saturday to get my hands on that neeon~ hopefully ~ becos im going with dear to purchase it. i get to spend $300 and the rest will be given to mom for house. as for mrs cheong, i hope the $15 will shut her pie hole~!
whatever.

bye.

Dont Lie

2005-10-11T15:49:00.000-07:00

I lost my hp! *knocks head on the wall* I havent tell my mom and dear. im still trying to recall how it happened. how can i be so clumsyy?! *knocks harder*
*sigh* mrs cheong came in bzf asked abt class fund. i seriously would appreciate it if she was to call me personally instead of putting me on the spotlight infront of my whole classmate saying you're the only one who havent paid the classfund. WTF! im so sure that she wudnt wanna be at my place that time. she kept on going and going. she even said at least give me a dollar. its fasting month biatch! i dont get my allowance for this month. or shall i say, i refuse to take it from mama. well. if she had asked me for a dollar before the fasting month, i wud have given her. i remembered she telling me not to pay installments cos its going to be such a hassle. then she mentioned that some of my classmates paid installments. WTF! is she out to embarrassed me? I guessed she must be living in a big house and rich that she doesnt know how it feels like to be in my position. i may appear to have everything [god knows]. but the fact is my parents work day and night trying to make ends meet. they slowly buy for us computers, the internet and almost single nessecities. and still im not someone who has money. i really do not want to publish wat im actually going thru right now cos i know half of u can only sympathize and not really feel. i stopped working only becos my mom asked me to choose between education and temporary satisfaction [the salary]. of cos i'd choose education. she told me that she wont force me to work. and i went to work on my own will. thanks to some selfish people, my family is like this. who wud have guessed that it will turn out like this? sape yg bole terima dgn rela? but thank god that i have strong parents.
guess what, if i dont pay up by 17 or 19, i cant take my exams. whats with that?
im not going to ask frm my parents. they already have enuff to carry.
well i really wud appreciate it if mrs cheong wud be kind enuff and goes like wat she said i dont like to ask u infront of the class [but she did anyway].
hmm they lied
there's no light at the end of the tunnel.
im done.

bye.